i failed my sister when she was young,
made the worst impression for marriage, life, more
to one, I loved so much.
nearing 36 I feel like 16, with no knowledge of who I am,
this mind of mine fails me every time.
gaining back trust, not only from her but everyone I lost,
this shall be my goal:
get better; rise above the darkness; stay out of bed; get out of my head…
I will gain back my own trust to find myself again.